Those were to words that my new doctor said about 52 times during our appointment today.
He wasn't being patronizing, he was being unbelievably reassuring.
He wants to wait.
He wants to see all the slides, labs and tissue samples from my first hospital - so that the specialized Gyn Pathologist at the new hospital can look at them all again. He wants to send me for a full CAT scan.
And he wants us all to calm down.
He is not worried that waiting a few weeks is going to make any difference in my health or outcomes. He told us that the chance that the ruptured cyst/tumor/whatever from my first surgery is the least of our concerns right now. He wants me relax and heal before moving forward with any treatment.
He was very firm that a second surgery is almost a given. He explained that it is necessary to "stage" the cancer. (Determine if it is Stage 1-4.) But while the other hospital lumped a hysterectomy into the staging process, Dr. R did not. He said that during the second surgery he will take samples from a lot of other areas in my abdomen and examine my uterus and remaining ovary. Then after doing all of those things, he will decide if the hysterectomy is necessary.
It will all be part of the same surgery - Its a little nerve wrecking to know that I'll have to fall asleep not knowing if I'll wake up with them or not. But I felt much more reassured that he would only take them out if it was completely necessary.
I have another appointment in exactly 2 weeks. In the next two weeks he will go through all the old information and the new CAT scan. Then we will talk about treatment. He says that a second surgery probably won't occur until after Christmas.
While waiting feels a little like prolonging the agony - I'm actually really relieved. I'm relieved to know that I get to spend some time healing. I am relieved to know that I get to have a normal Thanksgiving (and Black Friday with Melanie!) and Christmas. I'm relieved that I have time to think and get used to all of what is in store for me.
So, all of you can calm down too okay? :) But don't stop all the prayers, good thoughts, and well wishes - those are still needed! I'm so thankful for all the visitors and food and support! I'm trying to get through all the emails and Facebook messages that have been sent the last few days - you'll all hopefully hear from me soon! Plus, I'll keep updating the blog with any and all news.